Wednesday June 1st
June 1 has been my favorite day for years.
There are some very good reasons for it.
it’s my Queen Marilyn Monroe‘s birthday.
it’s my parent’s wedding anniversary
it’s the beginning of June.
Start of Pride month
It means My birthday is in 16 days
Enema of the State by blink-182 came out on this day in 1999.
The fact that it’s my favorite day of the year is why in 2016 I chose to get married. Which strangely enough was also a Wednesday. Currently, I say that now that I’m going through a divorce. it’s been filed it’s not finalized.
This is the first June 1 since then that I’ve been truly happy in a couple of years now.
So don’t get me wrong I chose to get married. I was very much in love and looking back on it now I should’ve gotten married. Love makes you do things even though your gut tells you not to. You ignore it. You live and you learn it’s ok. Sometimes things fall apart so other things can fall into place. It’s ok.
I don’t remember a lot from that day. Mainly one thing I remember from my wedding is being exhausted because we did everything ourselves, which is something to be proud of.
The most vivid memory I do have from the day is sitting at a table with some friends from college in my wedding dress and eating a blueberry-filled cupcake.
Now here are some things about this memory.
I ordered the dress at the last minute, cause the one I had I didn’t like how I looked in it. I felt like a cow and my tits were on the verge of popping out at any second.
The girl who was supposed to do my hair never showed up. Thankfully I had some dope friends who were already there and I got them to help me out.
The wedding cake/cupcakes were made by my aunt, who was one of my favorite people on the whole planet. The only instructions I gave her were, that the top cake had to be Funfetti cause that’s my favorite cake and then do the rest as cupcakes. I didn’t care what she did and she could go crazy. Which is exactly what she did she made cupcakes and filled them with different flavors like raspberry, blueberry, and strawberry deliciousness. I remember her telling me how much she enjoyed making them because it was something fun for her. I trusted her because she’s made cakes for me my entire life but she was so happy to be able to do that for me. Also, I was her favorite niece.
This was also the only thing I ate that day. I have a fit frappe which is a coffee with protein powder in it and a couple of jello shots. I honestly don’t know how I made it through the day like that. I say that but I do it a lot now.
I’ve been in a weird place lately so I just wanted to do some random musings and remember a happy memory about today. I’m glad the wedding happened and my aunt got to make my wedding cake. She died last year so it’s been a strange process for me.
