Can't be 100 if you're only giving 95 or way less.
Hiya,
I just wanted to give an update. I’ve been having a time trying to get everything in order.
To start off with the picture attached to this post was on Sunday before I took one of the dogs for a walk. I try to take mirror selfies for my weight loss process so I can compare things. I remember taking this and actually feeling normal at the time. My mind was clear and I didn’t feel super bloated. Which has been unusual since I’ve been working a normal schedule and I’ve been trying to get my body back in check. I realized yesterday that during the month of working double I gained 10 lbs. I have lost 7 of it current so I’m taking that as a good sign that I’m on the right path with that.
Next is to get my mind in check. I’m going to list some things below. Because I like to list and they make my brain work better
On Thursday I did get my doctor to give me something for my ADHD. The 1st one was a new kind that didn’t have a generic yet so my insurance wanted a $200 copay. I said absolutely not. Thankfully my pharmacy is dope and they always double-check things with me. Actually, this drug is so new that they didn't even have it so.
The Doctor’s office was closed Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Which gave made me anxious all weekend. I was giving something to help and wanted to test it while I was off just in case anything weird happened.
I got ahold of the Doctor’s office pretty easily yesterday. They called in another one but my pharmacy doesn’t even have it and didn’t know when they would get it to inform their manufacturer so I had to play phone tag with the Doctor's office the rest of the day. Which isn’t. easy when you are taking calls all day and we were busy since it’s was Monday. I had to log out a couple of times which I always feel bad about. However, this was something I needed.
They called it into CVS and the pharmacist there told me they weren’t showing in the network to check with my insurance which I did and called him back and said fill it cause they were.
I went to pick it up later and they wanted to charge me the out-of-pocket $72 price. I got a little angry and raised my voice at him telling him no it’s wrong cause I checked. He called the insurance and fixed it. He just took a number wrong from me over the phone. I apologized cause I felt bad for raising my voice but he understood it. After a day of trying, I got something and had to pay a $52 copay which is fine if it helps me.
I tell you all those things because I took it this morning and I have a lot of hope for it. So I will update you on it. Cause this is a journey for me. I stopped taking all the medication I was on when I was 18 cause it made me gain so much weight and just not feel like myself. My mom wasn’t thrilled about it and could never convince me to get back on it. She died 2 years later so I was really left to fender for myself.
Honestly, my brain has been such a disaster since she died I don’t think I really realize how much of a problem it was until now.
So…Here’s to getting the picture in my head right.
I stole that and the title of this post from the All Time Low song Melancholy Kalediscope. It’s one of those that has helped remind me to fix my head. Music is also a form of medication and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
